Dec 04 2008
Epiphany
Since Thanksgiving, I’ve really lived in a world of awe and wonder. I have had a difficult year with many challenges, including getting divorced. I didn’t know how I was going to make a life for myself as a single mom, or as a single person. I spent a lot of time crying, sleeping, and just getting to know myself.
Starting the week before Thanksgiving, I’ve really put a lot of thought into how much I have changed for the better, and how much more different my life is today than it was last year at this time. I really am so appreciate of the people in my life that helped support me, who patted me on the back when I didn’t even know I needed it. My friends who would call and have me and my boys over for dinner, or for someone who just sent me a joke in my email box so that I could smile.
My pastor talked to me at the beginning of my rough time and said that I needed to take days in as small chunks as possible, which might be ten minutes, it might be half of the day, but eventually it would be to the point where I would have awesome days and would start to really break free from the struggles I was going through. He was right, but it took a lot of time, and more time than I really wanted to spend in such a down draft of emotion.
Blessings don’t ever leave you. They make a mark on your heart that will never be challenged, and never go away. The influences other people can make on your lives can last a lifetime. I learned to ask for help when I needed it. I learned to just call a friend if I needed to cry, because it was better than crying by myself. My friends were very patient, and they were receptive to my earful of tears. They knew that listening was the best thing they could possibly do for me.
I resolve today to make sure that all of my friends know from my mouth how much their lives have touched mine, howe influential their experience with me was in a positive way. I’m pretty sure they already see the changes in my life for the better, but I don’t want them to ever think that I don’t appreciate the impact that they have had on my life and my epiphany of how much stronger and better I am today because of them.
Count your blessings.
